Watching “Hungry for Change” on Netflix, wearing clothing that could not clash more, I realized why I never lost the last 8lbs I “wanted” to lose. The author of “The Gabriel Method” said, “You will not lose weight if your body does not want to.”.
Speaker after speaker in the documentary described better living by working with nature and natural laws. One person said, ‘As long as you are taking in more toxins than you are eliminating, your body will not allow you get rid of the weight that is keeping you safe from the toxins you are ingesting.’ Whoa… say what?!
Another said as you seek to improve your health, you will want to ADD vegetables and fruits instead of taking out food groups. Not because they are “low calorie” but because they are so full of nutrients (I knew they were high in nutrients but the motivation was they were ‘low calorie’ and ‘high chew’). I heard over and over again, “Most people are overfed and under nourished.” I’ve come a long way… I really have, but I have so much further to go. I traded one type of processed food for another. Out candy bars and muffins, in protein bars and protein powder.
A nutrition counselor and friend posted on her company Facebook page a challenge to go “whole foods only” for one full day. Do you know my response? I commented, “tomorrow”.
That was several weeks ago and I have yet to actually do it. The biggest lesson of marathon training for me has been learning that when something feels impossible, it’s not, it’s just bigger than anything you’ve done before. My 4 year anniversary of weightloss is coming up in just over a week. Days are getting colder and the year is coming to an end. Those circumstances make me reflect on where I’ve been and where I want to go.
Other sage advice from “Hungry for Change”: It’s not just what you’re eating, it’s what’s eating you. Obesity is a “solution” to dealing with stress. Look at where you are not satisfied. If you are upset, don’t eat.
Easier said than done.
Exercise increases the feel good hormones that I’ve previously gone to sugar for. Hence why when I have not been running, I sign up for over 5 races… in 2 weeks. Just like other drugs, I end up needing more and more to feel the same “feel good” effect.
My body is not my enemy, it is my friend. Loving myself is the key. My parents want to love me, they just don’t know how. If I am honest with myself, I have maintained the size I am now on a roller coaster of healthy and unhealthy eating. I have not trusted myself. I have not truly let go of the concept I am a “fat person” who lost weight. As if my true self is meant to be fat and I have to fight it every day.
Jon Gabriel described losing 10, gaining 15 (reminding me of my losing 3, gaining 5 a few times over). I read part of his book many years ago, in a previous life, and remembered thinking “I don’t have time to visualize in a quiet space”. I have the ability to do better about that now. I do!
In closing, the documentary recommended 3 questions to ask before eating:
Where does my food come from?
What went into my food? (attitude, spirit, process)
What is my intention of eating my food?
My body is designed to be healthy. I can trust it and I can build its trust in me.
I am ready for the next phase of my journey and I accept myself unconditionally, right now.
From my heart to yours,
Thanks for reading