Spiral Up

People think that recovery is an upward staircase.  They think that things only get better with time.  The truth is, it’s more like an upwards spiral.  There are always highs and lows but as one grows, the lows don’t go as low and the highs are higher than ever before (Patrick, n.d.).

In my journey at this moment, I’m noticing things I’ve never noticed before.  People I have not spoken with for years have recently reached out.  In many ways, I am the same person I have always been.  In other ways, I’ve grown into someone nothing like my former self.

I believe every relationship serves a purpose but not every relationship is worth continuing.   I believe sometimes people are in our lives to teach us what we don’t want to be and challenge us to be better versions of our former selves.

I have crazy moments but they don’t last as long and they aren’t as crazy as they used to be.  I am grateful for that.  The answer to “I don’t know what to do” is “breathe”.  Embrace the moment.  Be present in “today”.  If you have breath, you have purpose, and don’t ever lose sight of that.


Patrick. (n.d.). The upward spiral of growth and recovery. Retrieved July 22, 2014, from http://www.spiritualriver.com/upward-spiral-growth-happiness-recovery/